Impetus

It started with a private message on Facebook.

I wasn't really expecting this because I knew I already missed my chance the last time they opened the program which was this February and I was really disappointed with myself on missing such an opportunity.

HERE's my previous post about it.

But when I got the invitation, I didn't really know how I felt. I still can't believe it.

I was bursting with joy as I read the message smiling.

"How in the world did I get an invitation to join the Bastard Program?"

But at the same time, I was scared. You know that feeling when you bought something and once you've got a hold of it, you try to find the worst thing about it? Cognitive dissonance.

I was scared of the things I may have to give up. I was scared of all the things that I may lose. And scared of all the things that I will have to go through during the course.

I work from afternoon til midnight while the course is 8:30PM - 10:30PM. How am I supposed to pull this off?

I asked myself,

"Are my desires worth the cost?"

I messaged my would-be mentor right after.

You may have noticed that the program doesn't come for free. You have to "Pay It Forward".

For other people, it's possible that the hardest part for them would be #lettinggo of their losing trades. They have somehow developed an emotional connection to their stock positions that they become afraid of cutting their losses. They have this connection because of several possible reasons.

The losses are already too big and they think #itstoolate to cut.
They've been #holdingon to the stock for too long.
They have big egos.
Their guru has the same stock even if there are no pics.

If there's anything that worried me, it would be the Purge. You can read about it HERE.

Cutting losses was never a problem. I've said before that I came from -70% and traded my way back to breakeven only to be -34% right now. It's not that I don't feel anything whenever I cut losses. You will always feel something. But each time you do it, you become desensitized. And when you do it over and over again over a considerable amount of time, you'll get to a point that all it takes is a mere smirk to forget about it. Zeefreaks just slept on a P1M loss.

I've been trading for two years and I've learned a lot. I've tried different indicators and used real money. I never paper traded even once.

Taking the course would mean that at some point, I will have to rid myself of most if not everything that I have learned since I started this endeavor.

That was what worried me.

But then again, you cannot gain something without sacrificing something else in return.

Now let's do some purging.

The first task was to close all my positions. I was given one week. I didn't have any qualms. I really needed rest. In fact, I wasn't holding any stock that time because I had just cut losses on my latest holdings. If there's one thing that I learned that I could take with me through the course, it is to cut losses and #moveon.

Then I was tasked to leave all Facebook groups, chat groups, and any other affiliations.

I left.

I had to unfollow any market personalities, subscriptions, or any website related to the stock market.

I did.

I think you know where I'm getting at.

Then I was put on a trading ban. On a time where almost all stocks are rallying.

PX 5.70 - 7.50

PXP 2.20 - 4.90

AGF 2.80 - 4.50

DD 38.00 - 49.00

ATN 0.3600 - 0.5400

If I traded using my system, I would've caught most of them especially PX and PXP.

Believe me.

It took everything I had to not trade. And it took a lot to convince myself that I had to let those trades go. To me, it was the ultimate form of delayed gratification.

But then again, a lesson without pain is meaningless.

The training started May 2, Monday. A lot of people dream of learning the Zeefreaks System. Other people who could be more capable with bigger ports and with extensive experience. But I was chosen instead. I'm very very thankful and I don't plan to disappoint those who believe in me.

I wasn't lucky. There's no such thing as luck, only blessings. If you haven't received what you asked for, it's not because you've ran out of luck or because you're unlucky. It's because you're not yet ready to receive those blessings. I guess I'm ready.

I honestly didn't know what to expect. I #letgo of everything that I have learned before. I poured out what was in my cup as much as I can. I listened very intently. I jotted down notes. Not just notes but whole sentences even paragraphs. I need to nail these lessons. Otherwise, these blessings would be #takenforgranted.

The first part was about Moving Averages. Five minutes into the lesson and I was aghast. These past two years I thought I was doing the right thing. I wasn't. That's why my port is negative. If it wasn't for this program, it would've taken me a couple more years to realize it.

After the moving average lessons, I was finally given the chance to trade. But I can only use 10% of my port. I was to apply what I have learned.

This was the result.

But I was only able to sell it at 0.3550 for a 10.94% gain.

"How could I have maximized my gains? I need to learn more."

The next lesson was about Boxes and Bosses. Wait.. what?

It isn't something new. It's been used for almost a hundred years by now and it still works.

What blew my mind is this.

All it took was a different way of seeing things.

A different perspective.

A different approach.

A different mindset - a fictional character's mindset.

Everytime we have class, I learn something new.

Everytime I review my notes, the lessons become clearer.

Everytime I do my homework, new questions pop into my head.

Everytime I look at charts, curiosity abounds and I can't help but apply what I've learned.

But I tell you.

It's not easy.

It's not like what typically happens in school where the teacher arrives and quickly writes on the blackboard while talking and you have to copy whatever words or symbols appear. It is discussed and a few moments later, the homework is given.

Shout out to my mentor for being extraordinarily patient.

Some people may think, "Maybe he's just a slow-learner. The Zeefreaks System is supposed to be simple. Why did it look like he had a hard time digesting that lesson?"

If that's what you think, get into the program and be my guest.

It doesn't matter if you have the highest intellectual capacity. Or if your IQ is at par with Garry Kasparov. Trading takes the smartest people and smashes them into the pavement every single day.

The Zeefreaks system is simple. Yes. But your enemy is really strong. Because it's you. And unless you "unlearn" your current beliefs, you won't make any progress.

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In case you're wondering, here's my portfolio performance since Day 1.

(Before the lesson proper. Right after the purge.)

(Application of current lessons. Only 10% of port is allowed.)

I was allowed only to do EOD trades. This was originally an all in on DD at 52.00 last May 23 but I didn't have the patience and sold half to buy NOW.

NOW trade didn't work out. Sold at a -10% loss due to bearish engulfing on May 30 (saved my ass).

Bought LBC at 12.50 on May 31. Sold at 11.60 the following day. What a rip!

Went back all in on DD increasing my AEP from 52.60 to 54.50.

I sold half of DD at 59.75 thinking it would encounter resistance at 60.00. It didn't. Instead it went up 7.68% the next day. This time I sold my remaining half. The next day, it went to 80.00. This is what I get for not following rules.

Bought PLC at 1.00 last June 6. It closed 13.40% up. I didn't sell because my target price was between 1.20 - 1.25. I averaged up at 1.06 making my average 1.03.

I sold all PLC at 1.01 before Friday's close because I was expecting a rally when it made a hammer the day before and it hit my time stop.

Bought PX when it made a new 52-week High last Thursday. There are other confluences but I'm not sure if I'm allowed to reveal it. But everything was textbook. Added more PX on Friday's close.

Bought PXP on Friday's close based on previous lessons.

Signals aren't as strong as PX but "when the system says "buy", you buy".

I wanted to post the latest screenshot of my port but:

Based on last Friday's close, I am down -6.62% from when I started the course.

But to think that my mentor was down -30% when he started was very encouraging to me.

I need to study more.